Do you ever read something and it just stops you in your tracks because it’s so relevant to the things that you have been thinking about and wondering about and hoping for?
I was directed to this article via one of my favorite blogs, and it wasn’t necessarily the subject matter that struck me, but these five lines: our beliefs create our reality. While in this case it’s in reference to infertility, and not taking medical infertility diagnoses as 100% fact (that can trick your body into thinking it can’t get pregnant naturally when in fact, you very well may be able to) to me it reflects a general mantra on how I want to be living my life.
Tom and I have always wanted two or three children, and now that Georgie is two, it’s something that we both feel we may be ready for soon. Why then were my first thoughts ones of worry and anxiety? Even though I got pregnant within half a year with Georgie, and I should feel positive going into this next chapter, I let myself go down an evil internet rabbit hole of secondary infertility. For no good reason at all, except to make myself nuts!!!
I wonder why it’s my natural way when planning something new to research it until I’m blue in the face, and go over every possible worst-case-scenario and deep dive into 100 personal stories around them and then stress over whether that will happen to me too. I think of myself as a pretty positive person, and when it comes to friends and family, I instinctively know that things will work out for them, but when it comes to me, it’s a completely different train of thought. I wish in general I could focus my thoughts to be truly and purely positive, and instead of worrying about things like getting pregnant again, I could feel excited and confident.
Those five lines above have given me so much clarity, and I hope that in the months to come I will be able to keep them top of mind.